I always hurt while I'm alone; the feeling of blades cut my fevered brain. I cant be here; its not my home... I only feel this never-ending sleeting rain. Take back what you have given, please stop your games and free my life, I cant move on with you in my memory... always present sadness nailed to my already crippled heart.

I dont want to see your face anymore, as I close my eyes. I want the pain to leave me so I can begin again. Stability hasnt found me, or saved me from this fall... wrapped in your arms in loneliness, until the shadows call.

So just keep tugging on my heartstrings and tearing at my eyes, as I seek to find the brighter side of my own demise. I wish to end the worry and forget about the strain, my own life pathetic I see myself only a drained.

Maybe ill wake up and you wont be in my mirror waiting, taunting me at every turn. Your smile there a warning of light far to burned. Maybe I can sleep at night and not hear the whispers in my ears, or maybe something simple like the scatter of the pills.